What am i thinking?

I've being asking myself the past few days, do i prefer to gather around with my friends or gangs in my free time? People who always stay with each other who's being called gangs, but are we just friends only? I have friends who think i'm that kind would entertain them, to have more fun. Thinking.. I dun feel close to them. Not feeling alone also. It's just that i prefered like my classmate Hazwani, she just a very carefree girl and dun talk much. I'd prefer that life. My life changes once again after that incident happened.. I just dunno how i feel now. Am i just feeling kong xu? Or? I've no idea at all.