Today.. I'm feeling very tired since morning till now or i should say since i woke up.. Oh gosh.. What's with me.. Feeling no energy at all, as if like going to faint all sudden, but still, i'm fine. =) Hmm.. Yeah.. Sometimes may felt like that. Not sure whether i lost interest of the course i'm studying now? Feel nothing.. Just nothing at all.. Dun understsand since school reopen till now. SianzZ.. Tired.. Other than tired, just tired.. =X "Arggg...."

Recently, i tried to feel.. How people talk to me by imagine without looking at them. Trying to feel how they speak to me. Just to know how would i feel. I would also want to know how they feel. Whether anything matters them? How's their character like? Maybe this time not because i'm curious about it, but i just can't explain it. Trying to feel everything around me. To listen, hope i can understand, just to understand. That's how i feel now..

I could feel.. Somehow like i could understand some situations.. Which i dun aware of anything last time. As for my studies.. As usual, still the same, dun understand what it's explaination at all. So helpless.. Well.. Just cannot concentrate on my studies. Just dun feel like revising what teacher had taught me before. So bu ying gai loh, but can't help it. Sometimes feel like forcing myself to study but "Arggg..." Just know that i would rather go understand the facts in xian shi shen huo. I was thinking.. Why do we have to study? My thoughts was, to me English is to help us to communicate well with other races as well as the people who came from other countries like now, more and more foreigners come to our country. So for other subjects those we learnt in primary and secondary schools, hmm.. to me, maybe is to get to know some knowledge. Just a knowledge, and i couldn't explain it any further as i dunno how to explain it. Hee.. I may be wrong, people around me can't probably agree with my thoughts yeah. =) I feel like studying xing li xue.. Will it be a good idea? Anyway no matter what, let's Jia You!! Aim for everything we can! Go! Go! Go! =D

A MAYONNAISE JAR & 2 CUPS OF COFFEE

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar and the 2 cups of coffee. A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him.When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golfballs. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar.He shook the jar lightly.The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.He then asked the students again if the jar was full they agreed it was.The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else.He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.The golf balls are the important things - your God, family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favoritepassions--things that if everything else was lost and only they remained your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house, and your car.The sand is everything else -! - the sm all stuff. If you put the sand into the jar first,' he continued, 'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will never have room for the things that are important to you. Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.'Take care of the golf balls first -- the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.' One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.The professor smiled. 'I'm glad you asked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

Good Friends

Last night you and your best friend had a fight.You decide not to talk to her the next day.She smiles at you. You grind your teeth at her.She tells her friends nice things about you. You spread bad rumors about her.She tries to come and talk to you. But you push her aside.She thinks you are a great friend. You think she is a terrible friend.She writes nice notes to you, telling you about the best times you shared together.You write about all the bad times you can remember experiencing together.Deep down you know she's sorry. But all you have is hate.The next day you find a note. It reads:

Dear ________,I tried to tell you yesterday, but you didn't let me speak, I tried to tell you good things,but you were afraid to hear them. I tried to smile at you, to take away the hate. But now it's time to tell you, even though it's a bit late. That i am dying. I have a bad condition and it is getting worse. I'm sorry to have to tell you that i won't be able to see you today. I wrote this to you today in the hospital. My time is up.I'm sorry i should have told you sooner. I'm really sorry about our argument, you are such a great friend. I promise i shall watch over you. Lots of love __________

You run to the hospital to tell her you are sorry,But only her mum is left wif hand clasped over her face.And she was crying down on her knees she prays, for her daughter to come back.You were too late.You wish you told her sorry sooner and got to say goodbye.All friends have their ups and downs, and sometimes you need to say sorry..Don't wait for the other person to do it first.Because you never know what could happen.

Yesterday, i played the Frozen Throne game at i.com. It was my very first time play that game until very mad. Hahax! Well.. I do have lots of fun playing with my friends Paul, Ming Han, and Chin Lun. Actually i should say i joined in the fun lah. Heex! Hmm.. Other than playing..? I felt relaxing lah.. And it also helped me release alittle bit of my stress as well.. What can i say? I just enjoyed! Lol..

Recently i felt weird of myself, dunno why also, will feel irritated easily. Especially my those friends as usual. But not sure whether isit i'm being attitude towards them, or dun have the time to listen to what they want to tell me or chat. Thinking.. I've got nothing to talk about? Nothing wanna tell them? No mood to listen to what they're trying to tell me? I admit sometimes i'll suddenly being rude to some people. Being emotional. But usually if i've nothing to say, i will keep quiet. So, towards them, i'd only feel like keep quiet. But sometimes, i'm not. I'll talk non-stop infront of them, entertain everyone around me. I do also need peacefulness. So, to me, it's really hard to explain. So, if anyone happens to ask me any questions, i might not be able to answer you. It's better not to ask me anything except my school work and those important stuff to me.