I am feeling moody now. After what happened yesterday. Actually just a minor thing, a small matter only. Hmm.. Well.. I dun have PE lesson and after my lunch, i went to i.com. That was early at that time at 11+. So, i chosed the first com. Later, chin lun and the guys came in. What happened next? Chin lun hold on the chair which i was sitting at and spin me around hope i can give the seat to him, yeah? What the.. Made me feel so dizzy after that and made me feel annoyed decided to shaked him just to let him feel how it's that feeling. I was so tired yesterday and fell asleep at around 7+ until this morning woke up around 8am. I was feeling okay at first after that it reminds me what yesterday and makes me feel moody already. Dun feel like talking much, not like the usual me who always talk non-stop. Thinking.. Maybe i'm in the wrong that i didn't give the seat to chin lun, if not i won't feel so down already. I was thinking i'm doing some sort of silly, stupid, and childish thing.

Having loTs of fun at i.com today! Well actually that game was Warcraft. Hahax! My mistake, not the frozen throne. Hmm.. Started taking step by step by knowing how to play and control the character i used. So, i'm very supprised that after playing in the morning, i could understand what my teacher was teaching about LAN, all about LAN lah.. Now then understand. Took such a long time, about 1 month plus.. How bad i am.. I'm a slow learner and slower than ever.. At least this time i could concentrate better during theory lesson loh. Happy! Heex..

I was too tired this afternoon during theory lesson. It was mr johnny's lesson, but i was too tired until the inside me will suddenly tell me go ahead and sleep and dun wake up. That was so scary.. But during theory lesson, i really sleep until "dio chua", normally when people have this kind of scary feeling is when you dream of falling from a place which is high. I still could hear mr johnny's teaching but only not very clear with what he was teaching cause i'm like 80 percent sleeping, 20 percent awake. That's how i felt..

Today.. Well.. Not sure whether isit the first time i face my family problems. I dunno.. Just.. Feeling down in the morning.. Thinking.. I am now 18 yrs going 19 soon.. How should i face this problem? Am i worried? Suddenly will imagine somethings.. And also solving problems as well.. Wanted to do something about it. What should i do?.. I told my mum when i reached home, i said actually what is family to me? No matter what we'll stand by each other, to face any situations, although it's adults matter, but i'm young enough to know the situation. Even if i'm very young, ignorant, to at least just listen. Because we're a family, we should face everything together. Mum.. I'll help you.. To be a better person.. And to also help myself as well.. Let us face everything together with you. And mum.. Now i could understand when i was in secondary, i'm such a ignorant.. Dun even understand how you felt and we always had a very bad time communicating with each other. Mum.. Let us guide each other okay? Let's Jia You! =)

Today.. I'm feeling very tired since morning till now or i should say since i woke up.. Oh gosh.. What's with me.. Feeling no energy at all, as if like going to faint all sudden, but still, i'm fine. =) Hmm.. Yeah.. Sometimes may felt like that. Not sure whether i lost interest of the course i'm studying now? Feel nothing.. Just nothing at all.. Dun understsand since school reopen till now. SianzZ.. Tired.. Other than tired, just tired.. =X "Arggg...."

Recently, i tried to feel.. How people talk to me by imagine without looking at them. Trying to feel how they speak to me. Just to know how would i feel. I would also want to know how they feel. Whether anything matters them? How's their character like? Maybe this time not because i'm curious about it, but i just can't explain it. Trying to feel everything around me. To listen, hope i can understand, just to understand. That's how i feel now..

I could feel.. Somehow like i could understand some situations.. Which i dun aware of anything last time. As for my studies.. As usual, still the same, dun understand what it's explaination at all. So helpless.. Well.. Just cannot concentrate on my studies. Just dun feel like revising what teacher had taught me before. So bu ying gai loh, but can't help it. Sometimes feel like forcing myself to study but "Arggg..." Just know that i would rather go understand the facts in xian shi shen huo. I was thinking.. Why do we have to study? My thoughts was, to me English is to help us to communicate well with other races as well as the people who came from other countries like now, more and more foreigners come to our country. So for other subjects those we learnt in primary and secondary schools, hmm.. to me, maybe is to get to know some knowledge. Just a knowledge, and i couldn't explain it any further as i dunno how to explain it. Hee.. I may be wrong, people around me can't probably agree with my thoughts yeah. =) I feel like studying xing li xue.. Will it be a good idea? Anyway no matter what, let's Jia You!! Aim for everything we can! Go! Go! Go! =D